“Don’t wanna wake up with no one beside me, don’t wanna take up with someone new. Don’t want nobody coming by without calling first. Don’t want nothing to do with you.” –Pete Yorn
Perhaps it’s the natural draw of winter hibernation but this line from the song Splendid Isolation really speaks to my current state. Amid the revelry and fun this Christmas, I received a couple of pieces of somewhat painful news that I’m still trying to digest. Isn’t life just like that…a mix of joy and sadness? Luckily, this sort of solitary time is perfect for editing, so I suppose there is that benefit.
I had a wonderful visit in Los Angeles where I got to spend precious time with nearly all my friends on a “couch tour” all over the city: West Hollywood, Beachwood Canyon, Woodland Hills. We celebrated with silliness, food and drink–it felt truly wonderful and loving. Now that I’m home, I feel the urge to hole up in my little cottage in solitude. For the first time–possibly ever–in my life, I don’t have plans for New Years Eve. And rather than making me feel sad or anxious, it’s kind of a relief. I have had many splashy celebrations over the years: big and small parties, concerts and dance club events, but none of those suit my mood this year. I’m feeling downright contemplative. 2013 was a tough year for me and I just want to get calm and quiet and welcome 2014 with silent lips and open arms.
We are entering the Year of the Horse. In the Native Peoples’ lore the horse is the symbol of power. This quote from The Medicine Cards sums it up nicely:
In understanding the power of horse, you may see how to strive for a balanced medicine shield. True power is wisdom found in remembering your total journey. Wisdom comes from remembering pathways you have walked in another person’s moccasins. Compassion, caring, teaching, loving and sharing your gifts, talents and abilities are the gateways to power.
Naturally, I thought of Silky’s moccasins (though I doubt seriously that she ever owned a pair!) and my journey in bringing her story to the world. The Chinese Zodiac predicts the Year of the Green Wood Horse to be filled with grit, spirit, vitality, determination and endurance. It signals a turning point that will offer a new course and set the stage for the next 25 years. In Chinese astrology, Horse heralds a fortunate year that brings luck, adventurous travel, fast victories and unexpected romance. It’s a time of high energy where achievements are rewarded, but you have to act quickly in a Horse year and be completely certain of your decision. Sounds to me like the ideal time to get my book published!
This week’s photo was one I found in the Colindale Newspaper Library on my very last day in London. It was a full page in Tatler magazine from 1932 and still takes my breath away every time I see it. The portrait was done by Dorothy Wilding of Bond Street who went on to become the first female photographer to capture the royal family. It was taken the same year Sylvia met Douglas Fairbanks Sr. and fell deeply in love.
I am preparing myself to ride the horse on a powerful journey to new adventure. And I am quite certain that includes a champagne toast–with or without company. Happy New Year!